This Week

A week ago we had  a great day.

Wednesday night it all fell apart.

Thursday was hell.

Friday was hell. 

Saturday was recovery 

and today I'm battling that anxiety... beacuse I don't like going through this. I don't like feeling this way anyways. I'm so tired -  I can't fight anything because all Iwant is peace and thats all I've wanted. I want acceptance from everyone for who I am... I don't want jealousy.  I don't need craziness....  I just want acceptance.  I can't be who everyone wants me to be. 

But I will stand up for those who I believe in.  Even if they are at odds sometimes, because that I who I am...   I'm sorry.   I can't give up friends who are meaningful to me and shouldn't be required to...   because not everyone can give us what we need but if we have enough people who help do so we can at least begin to feel whole.   Understanding and peace...  

But I can't keep standing up for friends either....  I'm tired of fighting that fight. I can't keep losing trust of everyone I know because they don't believe in me or have trust in me....

 

I can't fight. I can't stay mad... either.   I'm too tired to continue this. I really am.  I'm going to fade away if I have to keep going through this.   I'm too tired....  Its killing me.